Reboot

Reboot

Assimilation to the here and now is becoming more and more like trying to hold water in a sieve. Post-pandemic life, for me anyway, has proven to be somewhat of a major task. The everyday things that I used to take for granted have become such major events in my life, that I’ve discovered I cannot properly function without a session of deep planning, an exercise in motivation and copious amounts of chemicals that will allow me to function properly. A DuPont advertising slogan once stated, and was superiorly bastardised by Josh Homme – “Better Living Through Chemistry”. I have thought about this slogan often, and have reservations about its legitimacy. Whilst DuPont was genuine in its belief that we aspire to a better life through their pushing the chemistry envelope for the betterment of humankind, I believe Josh Homme’s belief was a somewhat tongue-in-cheek observation about how we use chemicals to balance our brain chemistries. And this is where I have this nagging issue about it all. I definitely could not function without the chemicals I am prescribed, but the side effects of these medications have a much deeper effect on me than I originally thought. My memory for instance. I find that my life, which is now well into its declining years, has become a fog of ‘stuff’. I can’t be sure that a lot of things that I remember actually happened and vice versa a lot of things that did happen I have little or no recall of. So is it really better living? I’m not so sure.